whoops i did it again again

I'm still here... are you still here?!

It's been a while I know, but I am still alive and kicking. And very occasionally blogging.

Crazily I signed up for NaBloPoMo again - it turns out I'm a bit of a traditionalist, and try as I might, I couldn't say no after four years of NaBloPoMo success.

I do have a blogging dilemma though. I am not in a particularly good place right now. Should I be fraudulent and pretend I am OK? Or hang out the washing and let you into my reality?

Truth be told, I don't want to let you in. Instead I might proffer the held-together me. The me who smiles and laughs in all the right places as she quietly falls apart on the inside. The me who blithely navigates her way through all life's troubles seemingly unharmed.

It will be interesting to see what spills out.

In the mean time, I have discovered why I have not blogged for months - silence is so much easier. (If I hit delete now I could deliberately fail the challenge on day one and not write another thing for the next thirty days!)

Darn it. I might be miserable, but I still love a challenge. So NaBloPoMo it is.

Let the fun begin.