chrysalis

Everything is shifting.

My head, my life. Everything.

And it is good, because 2007 (possibly longer) was one long slide into a ditch of mediocrity, self indulgence and over commitment. There was no reflection. Personal growth was nonexistent.

But now I feel renewed, as if touched by God.

Thus the blogging silence! I cannot think what to write, for how does one reduce the transformation of a soul into mere words on a screen?

A moment this evening captured one element of this internal shift. Jo Tsonga defeated Rafael Nadal in the tennis. As the TV station wrapped up their coverage they offered a selection of slow-mo clips. They were incredible. Sprays of sweat hurtled into space; green fibres rubbed off a ball and dreamily drifted across the surface of the court; a tennis ball collided with the tape, causing the sun to slowly cascade down each thread of the net like water down a fountain - beautiful moments lost to us in the hurly burly of a competitive match. But even if we didn't see them, they were there, unfurling their beauty despite their insignificance in the grander scheme of a grand slam semi-final.

And that's how it is with me. I'm trying to slow down, and as I do so I'm seeing those things that usually pass unnoticed in the grander scheme of things. My outlook is radically altered and no part of my life remains untouched.

Everything is shifting, and I like it.